I haven't posted much lately (I blame Facebook!!!....lol!) but wanted to come in and share a video for what has become my new favorite Christmas song. So, just in case anyone is still following this sad little blog (if you are then let me know and encourage me to git back to postin'!!).....
Sit back and enjoy this one, and once you've watched it once, play it again but this time close your eyes and just listen.....
Blessings my friends!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Didn't see THAT coming....
So the horse has been here for almost two weeks now. He's a real sweetheart and is settling in and putting on weight and all that good stuff. We spent weeks getting his shed and the turn-out pasture ready for his arrival. I was all ready to go and jump back into horse-ownership....
But I have made the unexpected discovery that I am just not as "into" it as I used to be. Didn't see that coming!! It's a very weird feeling and I've been trying to figure out what's "wrong." What I've concluded is - and this is a hard one to admit - that I don't have the nerve that I used to.
One day last week I was leading him, and some invisible boogey-man spooked him on the right, and he jumped straight and hard to the left, where of course I was standing. His leg hit my knee so hard that I dropped to the ground and couldn't get up for several minutes. Ten days later, my knee is still hurting me.... Yesterday I resolved that I was going to get on him. Thing is, I had to work up to it all day. When I finally did hop on him, we just stood there. For all of 3 minutes. I was absolutely terrified of him bolting or spooking or otherwise doing something to unseat me. Horses can feel your nervousness, so I certainly wasn't helping matters. D'oh!
He's a great horse, but I'm realizing that he's the horse I would have wanted 15 years ago. He's not the horse for me now. I guess I've just been away from it for too long. Weirder still is that I seem to have no resolve whatsoever to just beat it (the fear, not the horse!...lol!). I'm perfectly content to walk away and that's that. If I did get a different horse, what I'm looking for at this stage of my life is some older horse that's seen it all, one that you can lie back on and soak up the sun and he's just gonna fall asleep under you. My idea of a fun ride is just a stroll around camp, not hanging on for dear life going Mach 2! That was me once, but not now. I guess having 3 kids to raise and having a body that just plain takes longer to heal has changed my perspective some!
But I have made the unexpected discovery that I am just not as "into" it as I used to be. Didn't see that coming!! It's a very weird feeling and I've been trying to figure out what's "wrong." What I've concluded is - and this is a hard one to admit - that I don't have the nerve that I used to.
One day last week I was leading him, and some invisible boogey-man spooked him on the right, and he jumped straight and hard to the left, where of course I was standing. His leg hit my knee so hard that I dropped to the ground and couldn't get up for several minutes. Ten days later, my knee is still hurting me.... Yesterday I resolved that I was going to get on him. Thing is, I had to work up to it all day. When I finally did hop on him, we just stood there. For all of 3 minutes. I was absolutely terrified of him bolting or spooking or otherwise doing something to unseat me. Horses can feel your nervousness, so I certainly wasn't helping matters. D'oh!
He's a great horse, but I'm realizing that he's the horse I would have wanted 15 years ago. He's not the horse for me now. I guess I've just been away from it for too long. Weirder still is that I seem to have no resolve whatsoever to just beat it (the fear, not the horse!...lol!). I'm perfectly content to walk away and that's that. If I did get a different horse, what I'm looking for at this stage of my life is some older horse that's seen it all, one that you can lie back on and soak up the sun and he's just gonna fall asleep under you. My idea of a fun ride is just a stroll around camp, not hanging on for dear life going Mach 2! That was me once, but not now. I guess having 3 kids to raise and having a body that just plain takes longer to heal has changed my perspective some!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Today....
....is a bad day.....
Today, I am really disliking home schooling.
Today, I really wish I had another alternative!
But I don't. So I must press on. I feel like my kids are learning nothing. I feel like we just float through our days with no aim. Mostly that's my fault. I am no good at organizing a school day without turning it into a classroom-at-home. I can't seem to find that middle ground. If I try to put some organization to the day, the kids balk at having to do "work." If I try to back off and let them follow their own natural leading, it goes NO where! Well, no, that's not entirely true....but their leading more often than not has nothing to do with "learning" what so ever. Left to their own devices, it would be tv, video games and such.
I'm so frustrated. I feel like I can't win here. And I'm tired of fighting this battle.
.
Today, I am really disliking home schooling.
Today, I really wish I had another alternative!
But I don't. So I must press on. I feel like my kids are learning nothing. I feel like we just float through our days with no aim. Mostly that's my fault. I am no good at organizing a school day without turning it into a classroom-at-home. I can't seem to find that middle ground. If I try to put some organization to the day, the kids balk at having to do "work." If I try to back off and let them follow their own natural leading, it goes NO where! Well, no, that's not entirely true....but their leading more often than not has nothing to do with "learning" what so ever. Left to their own devices, it would be tv, video games and such.
I'm so frustrated. I feel like I can't win here. And I'm tired of fighting this battle.
.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Homesteaders Heart: Here it is! Mini kitchen makeover and giveaway!
Homesteaders Heart: Here it is! My mini kitchen makeover and giveaway!
I'm not sure who all is gonna see this, other than Bloggers who are already friends of Kim's!....but none the less, if you haven't checked out this give-away, well GIT ON OVER THERE!!!!...IT ENDS TOMORROW!
(Well, better late than never, right?!)
I'm not sure who all is gonna see this, other than Bloggers who are already friends of Kim's!....but none the less, if you haven't checked out this give-away, well GIT ON OVER THERE!!!!...IT ENDS TOMORROW!
(Well, better late than never, right?!)
Monday, October 19, 2009
Blog loser
I've come to the undeniable fact that I am, in the world of blog-dom, a loser.....*sigh* That's right, I"m one of "those" kids in high school. I just don't fit in anywhere. Once in a while a "cool" kid will talk to me, but I remain on the fray.
I'm as much to blame as anyone else. You know the old saying, "You've got to be a friend if you want to make a friend." I don't have lots of time to read other blogs and post comments, so really, how will anyone else even know I'm here?!!
But you know what else? I'm comfortable with my blog-loser-ness!...lol!! I like this blog. No one in my circle of family/friends follows it (or even knows about it, for that matter) so it's my safe place to come blog, vent, dream, etc., without worrying that something too personal is gonna get out there. I have another blog that I keep specifically for the purpose of having family & friends far away keep up with our daily life here at camp. But this blog, is alllll mine!
So I will keep coming here, blogging about whatever, when I can. I love to read some of the other blogs I follow...some are side-splitting funny on a fairly regular basis, others are inspirational in terms of home decor. Others are located in parts of the country that I wish I could visit, so it's a good way to be there, virtually. I think maybe when I get scrap booking again (soon!!), I'll start posting some pages here, and maybe - MAYBE! - I'll provide inspiration for someone else!
Or not.
I'm as much to blame as anyone else. You know the old saying, "You've got to be a friend if you want to make a friend." I don't have lots of time to read other blogs and post comments, so really, how will anyone else even know I'm here?!!
But you know what else? I'm comfortable with my blog-loser-ness!...lol!! I like this blog. No one in my circle of family/friends follows it (or even knows about it, for that matter) so it's my safe place to come blog, vent, dream, etc., without worrying that something too personal is gonna get out there. I have another blog that I keep specifically for the purpose of having family & friends far away keep up with our daily life here at camp. But this blog, is alllll mine!
So I will keep coming here, blogging about whatever, when I can. I love to read some of the other blogs I follow...some are side-splitting funny on a fairly regular basis, others are inspirational in terms of home decor. Others are located in parts of the country that I wish I could visit, so it's a good way to be there, virtually. I think maybe when I get scrap booking again (soon!!), I'll start posting some pages here, and maybe - MAYBE! - I'll provide inspiration for someone else!
Or not.
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